You get up very early that morning, well before daylight. You know that you have been preparing for this moment for the last 2 years. You are more then nervous. Everything is riding on how you perform. You have that feeling in your stomach of pure raw emotion.

You have packed the vehicle with everything you could possibly need for the hour commute. Of course knowing that you are the prepper and preparing for these moments. You know the moments where a panic attack can hit you at any given moment.

It’s familiar but still scary. You know that as soon as the leave the city limits the heart will start to pound. You’ve never been to this place before. What do you think it will be like? All the while you know that once you walk into that building you are not allowed to leave. At least not until you finish your 2 part test. The first part is covering all of the anatomy you have learned over the past 2 years and the second part is all about Massage Technique.

The thing is the back of your head is “I only have this one time to take it or they don’t give it for another 6 months”.
You know that you are tough and strong but you also know that you will be confined to a space.

Deep breathes as I watch “Thomas Crown Affair” in the back of vehicle. Looking down at my anatomy book the whole way. Knowing that if I didn’t know it by now, I didn’t even need to be taking my test.

I get there and of course when I walk into the building it’s big. There are 850 people there that day and only about half of us are going to pass.

The thing is you take the first part of the test, then you have to go out of the building and wait for 2 hours to go back in to take the 2nd part.

There I was birds flying around in the ceiling of the big Fairgrounds building.

That day, I was stronger than I had ever been before. That day was a big step not only with my anxiety but with who God called me to be.

I did pass my boards that day but of course I did not find out for 5 weeks.

One of the most powerful accomplishments I have had in my life was getting my License to practice Massage Therapy.

I know that you have had moments in your life where you just wondered what am I really doing here, can I do it, what about this what about that…….

One of the best things I ever did for myself with being someone who struggles so long with Anxiety was to Decide, commit and succeed.

More than anything in life that day I had to finish what I started. I had not finished anything in life that was just for myself.

My life of course changed forever that day. The things is as you put yourself out there and you commit to yourself, you can do great things.

Please comment below and tell me one of your greatest moments where you have conquer anxiety.

I look forward to your story.
Robin